Love ... is not merely a feeling

This would probably be my last entry on it. Every now and then problem persist in our daily life’s whether we like it or not.

The thing is we could only evade such problem for a certain period of time; eventually one has to come to own term and find a viable solution to end it all.

It has been a sweet, sad and unforgotten year, but what doesn’t destroy will only makes one stronger. I’m glad I didn’t make any impulsive decision that would make thing turn otherwise.

Perhaps the joy of laughter’s is better enjoyed over a cup of iced coffee….
我不在乎天长地久, 只在乎曾经拥有

Christmas 2009

Time passes by so fast this year, one couldn’t help to wonder “Wow~ did I do anything significant? Did I have leave a good impact dealings with peoples around me?”
I have learned an important lesson:-

To Declare love to someone you know does not love you, cannot love you is COERCIVE"

Contrarily to believe no matter how romantic one can be, it needs another partner to appreciate it. It takes TWO to tango.

只要抓住一次机会，人生就会多姿多彩

yea~ it's the moment of the year where one get a few days left to reflect on their yesterday and start anew another year ٩(●̮̮̃•̃)۶

Maternal Grandfather.

My maternal grandfather passed away today. Although I do not know him very well nor he was every kid’s dream of a grandfather figure. As I can recall he never treated me bad; a typical Chinese grandfather I supposed. Wish I could know him better but other than occasional yearly gathering. Celebrations and smoking joint session, I never really had the chance to connect to him.

He was the only grandfather I knew off since my paternal grandfather passes away a long time before I was born.The one thing I know of him is he is responsible for the old wooden Connaught Bridge a long time ago. The bridge has since been replaced by a concrete ones bridging across Klang River. That was his legacy.

I always felt that regardless of what one’s deed was, upon his dead all should be forgiven and pass. May his soul rest in peace.


11/11/2009

MoonLighter~ 09/09/09

What an auspicious day it is.. Chinese beliefs that in whatever things we’re doing or dealing with, it is customary to ‘buy’ good favours~ between a RM 300 summon and a RM 30 ‘tea money’.. I chooses the latter, it’s not that I encourage such practices.. but it make good common sense when it come to tight pocket.. sigh~

Today also mark my 1st attempt to ‘moonlighting’. It’s not that I deliberately do it, because priority will be there and a second alternative should come in place simply getting an opportunity doesn’t knock often.. so why not?

chinese 7 1/2 month~

The Ghost Festival : 中元节

old people used to say " Don't roam around at night, stay home! after you accidently step on dirty thing~" The earliest memories I have is probrably growing up with my aunt, planting joss stick and candle by the roadside.. tossing 'shit candy' (colourful poo shaped candy on a button biscuit) around the pavement, not sure if i'm supposed to pick those up to eat~ but i kinda remember doing so.

Anyway it the thing of the past, since my family doesn't pray but nevertheless there no harm trying to observe this ancient tradition even when one is not pious~

August Delight~

Ouch~ my dorsalgia is hurting like hell~ any sudden movement seems to radiate the pain to the extremities.

This is the few moment where people see me walk like an old man.. hahaha~ ouch!

July Campur campur post

Aiya.. I felt really bad that I left this blog is a miserable state. It just that always whenever something happen, I wishes to blog in the evening but never did simply it either I’m still to busy finding solution or just plain to lazy to type it in.

So I’m just going to categorize the important issue.

Work- I really got tired of constant cannot do quote thingy, the company that I’m still in spens ten of thousand for software that is unfriendly; more to say they couldn’t use it well and can’t be carry around. So I decided to write ‘all in one pages’ on excel. It turn out just fine! Just need to repair a few kinks here and there. Solution to math’s is simple but formulating it onto excel recognize formula is disastrous! So gods help me please so I can make it a better tool.

My latest attempt to further enhance my lousy as ever sales is being banned and facing a horrible setback. OMFG! What the hell you say you don’t like runner fees??? Everyone bloody knows that you been feeding the top gun for such a long time and you do not allow me to do so because of your biased opinion??? The wastage you have piling up each month is 10 times more than the fee commands…refusing to pay for a meal you finishes and say it no good…I spat on u!

Life- what is the value of freedom? If consideration is based on length of time or quality time, which will prevail? Currently I’m placing bets on quality of time. This week met up a few classmates since primary after someone posted up an old photo in FB. How we have all aged.. some are balding, pot bellies and all. Amazing how FB hook up lost contacts over a single picture.

My old man is in the hospital again 2 days back suffering from chest pain. Nope no heart attack~ another case of heart burn.. Hope everything turn better as he get discharged later.

Sad Fortuity

This week couldn’t be possibly much worse~. For start.. I lose my car key and couldn’t seems to find it anywhere, I’m seriously considering if I should have all the car lock changed or just get a spare key replacement.

I’ve started on eastern meds course this week.. Yes! I have been ill, should I not take heed now, one could very well sees my name etched in some tombstone 5 yrs from now.. Wonder if anyone would misses me then?

Currently having this excruciating leg cramping bouts of gout attacks.. it could be the meds side effect….

特別的愛給特別的妳

沒有承諾　卻被你抓得更緊
沒有了你　我的世界雨下個不停
我付出一生的時間　想要忘記你
但是回憶　回憶　回憶
從我心裡　跳出來　擁抱你

特別的愛　給特別的你
我的寂寞　逃不過你的眼睛
特別的愛　給特別的你
你讓我越來越不相信自己

我還聽見　你的聲音
輕輕縈繞著我的心
我還不能　接受分離
就是永遠不能在一起

Tua Setahun Lagi~

now that I am older~ I am ever determined to be cheerful and happy, in whatever situation I may be; for I have also learned from experience that the greater part of our happiness or misery depends upon our dispositions, and not upon our circumstances. (•̪●)

Altruism

"deliberate pursuit of the interests welfare of others"

Woo.. I'm ashamed that it’s been so long since I punch in here.. so much been happening that I just do not know where to begin…

Anyway a important note in my life.. apparently I was asked “u still waiting for my reply?” it took me a full 2 minutes to answer that….am I hesitating?

My answer was “Well.. it's pass due right? ”

2 year and 5 days isn’t really a long time, but many things has changed since then........I’m forever in your gratitude...

Runaway~

Am so sorry....

April's Fool

My heart seems to beat a little faster these days
Maybe it’s the thought of life changing unexpectedly

I’ve heard so many tales of untold stories
But now you're gone.. a chance we never had

I dreamt of joy and warmth
You are our sorrow and our joy. There's love in every tear.

Answers to questions, questions to ponder,
Limited only by what we initially thought were right.

There were no tears in my eyes
But a pain in my heart….of an emptiness in my soul

Just know my love goes deep and strong, I’ll forget you never.
The chance we had, but never had, and yet will have forever.

ROOT

Wow.. almost 25 days of non posting. I should be better than this.. totally ashamed.
Ching Ming is just around the corner, over the years we asian especially the Chinese community will clean and pray for our long gone and dead ancestor cemetery. An event to commemorate and honor to their forefathers

Since young I find it puzzling to pray to a headstone of my grandfather and other relatives that I’ve not seen; they passed on a long time ago. It is always my wishes to track my lineage. All I know was that my grandfather came to then Malaya to escape the war. There’s a few version that I’ve heard from the elders which I’m unsure of.

Questions like ‘Who am I?’ ‘Where do we come from?’ ‘How many generation/clan members we have?’ always runs through my mind. Apparently there’s a clan book that trace my entire ancestor back to 22 generations!! *if say an average person were to get married at age of 20+ that makes it almost 400+ years*, but the book is lost over the years. A few years back I sort of asked around my relatives if they know who stills have a copy of book. No one in the families in Malaysia has it, I believes half if not all my younger generation has not seen it.

I’ve managed to trace the book through a relative in Singapore; due to health reason He wasn’t well to travel to Malaysia until last week to give me a copy. I’m overjoyed that finally that my curiosity over the years is going to be answered, but now I have a huge problem… I CAN’T BLOODY READ CHINESE!!!

I’ve heard wonderful tales when I was kid that a lot of my ancestors are scholars and some were prime ministers in the olden days. The best deciphers I gotten today is that all previous generation middle name is based on a poem.*my current generation do not practice middle name anymore* I only got the half the poem from the 13th generation onwards.. the 1st part is missing…

Of manipulation and exploitation

"Writing gives you the illusion of control, and then you realize it's just an illusion, that people are going to bring their own stuff into it." - David Sedaris

Having read and understand that. ~ Tonight I have overheard the wildest accusation yet. Apparently someone been keeping tab on what I wrote and accused me of corrupting images and reputation through blogs.

http://voxgemini.blogspot.com/2007/04/foreword.html - clearly states my claims.

There 2 thing I would never do: - Manipulation and Exploitation.
Manipulating is cruel and exploitation is downright ugly.
Seems anyone can come and go from this website without comment most of the time. It makes me wonder: are we so insulated/isolated we cannot share an idea?

A letter to Douche and Scum Bag

I wanted to dispute the reality and facts.

Malaysia Employment Act 1955
I.) “Contract of Service (10.1)” clearly state a written contract of employment must be given to every employee where the employment period exceeds 1 month. The contract must include particulars of the terms and conditions of employment and notice period required to terminate it.”
A contract of employment shall contain particulars of:
o the names of employer and employee
o the date when the employment began
o the place of work or an indication of that and of the address of the employer
o the title of the job which the employee is employed to do or a brief description of the work for which a person is employed
o the commencement salary and where applicable other allowances and bonus
o any terms and conditions relating to :
 probation period
 hours of work
 entitlement to holidays, including public holidays
 overtime pay and leave in lieu
 incapacity for work due to sickness or injury, including any provision for sick pay and medical bills
 EPF and SOCSO schemes


Due to the sensitivity of a certain illiterate person, I had this post omitted and removed

5th edit~

Sufferings and Oppositions

I’ve been slacking off a lot lately in updating blog. Not that I didn’t wanted to but couldn’t find the right time to sit down quietly and my photo cable is in the offices. Though I did load some pics on the laptop in office but I didn’t quite have the time to write.

Anyway.. FEBRUARY SUCKS! *literally speaking ~ Ahaks.. ok so here what been going on.. I’m broke~ purchased the SPYDER RS and accessories cost me a bomb. Lady luck been kind to me this CNY~ I don’t gamble so like usual I would donate through investment through CNY, but this year didn’t do so.. I tagged along friends to genting.. and viola….I got a good 30 fold returns ^.^ V

It almost month ends..I’m eating dust with no sales..* sad..panic..sad..panic..damm.. * hopefully tomorrow the lady confirm an order with me. The only thing confirm is next month volume..

Ok.. My higher management are a bunch of retard, douche bags and scumbag. Why??
Let see.. I have an ‘extension of probabtion’ letter *yerp.. I spell it the way it written!!*
Due to these unsatisfactory reasons.
Reason No 1: 7 days U/L *omg!*
Reason No 2: 8 days ½ U/L *Damm..I’m good!*
Reason No 3: 61 days late *Woahh!!! Il suffit de voir les chiffres!!
Reason No 4: Attire~ Almost- (mostly after lunch) wearing slipper to Office. This disregard of the Company reputation, image and safety of the factory *I almost blurt out my morning breakfast from laughing too hard*

I’m so fucking hates all these Machiavellianism Assholes! - any means (however unscrupulous) can be used by an Arse in order to create and maintain Arsetistic autocratic government. Question now is.. Am I Gonna Do Anything or Say Something About This??

I attend a major PKR dinner in PJ today.. interesting.

24-01-09 till 26-01-2009

Wanted to blog so much this few days but couldn’t find the right time nor the energy to do when I’m finally free..

24-01-2009 Saturday

Yeaa~! The final day of work……

Uh hur~ We loves our chickens!! o.0


Boxes and boxes of wrapped gifts~

Mountain of hampers~
Very nice~~ I got Shopping vouchers instead~ hahaha... great cuz I havent done my shopping then.. a true last minute shopper like usual....


25-01-2009 Sunday

In all my life except the younger years where I go commando, I’ve always been a briefs person. This year I decided to opt for boxer instead. It felt seriously very loose nice :x

Done with shopping and gift~ went for a German fantasy novel based movie instead “Titenherz”

This caught the attention of my sis.. “she says “Kor~ let’s go do something nice before CNY and donate blood” The only time I donated blood then was years ago during an emergencies. So I’m all in for the good cause.. It’s seems our blood bank is running critically low due to dengue and yellow fever crisis.
My sis and I are a fan of flowing blood through the tubes….it just goes red…loop and loop and loop.. what a sight

End the evening with a prayer at PJ Siamese temple; prayed for all humanity and loved ones. It was raining!! there goes my effort to keep a clean car for tomorrow..

26-01-2009 Monday

Happy Chinese New Year!!!

D.O.E

Another few days more it going to be CNY 2009.. as usual I have not done any new year shopping yet. Wonder what I am going to do with my 8 days leave. It’s been a busy since last week because I had to deal with a DOE issue..apparently some sludge got in the drainage system and everyone just kick the ball to me expecting me to solve it. Sometimes I wonder why am I always the one solving problem?? Am I a magnet to problem solving??

I’m supposed to liaison with the officer for the entire problem. Since I know nothing of environment; I did my own studies and interviews, classification and proper labeling plus allocation, draft my own filtration system, built one myself *got help from my neighbour*, installed the filter cage myself *only to get the 1st prototype dimension wrong*

I’ve submitted photographical event of before and after, draft letter and have a meeting with the DOE officer yesterday for further action. A reasonable compound is given, a token for the fast action and compliance with the issue. Haiz…. Let hope everything is fine now onwards.. a second meeting and report is scheduled after CNY, hopefully I can write an appeal to further reduce the compound.

Did I mention that I am still an “Apprentice Salesman”?? I’m pretty sure such issue doesn’t fall under sales and marketing. There ain’t no one gonna pat your back when you save the day.. bah 0.o!

Bottle Gifts~

Martell XO Suprême (Extra Old) ...lovely lovely piece..

Yerp~ it's the time of the year again where I receives my bottle to add to my collection.. a snippet from the maker

“Deep gold amber.. full, rich and powerful, with a hint of dry fruit. Complex, full of flavour. Hints of almond and vanilla with a long aftertaste”

Lonely Driver~

Let’s see.. last night I pick Sis A from KL, and sent her to KLIA a while back. Then this coming noon need to sent MCML to LCCT and Sis B is going to LCCT this Wednesday, where I’m the chauffeur.. gonna be so dry on petrol deii~!!

If I take in consideration one round trip (1) is roughly $35 including toll and petrol;
January Quota would be: 1 + 1 + 1 + 1 + 1 + 1 + (1 *soon coming home again Sis A) + (1 + 1 *previous Sis A trip for January) = 9 x $35 = $ 315……… I’m sooo..... -.=!

11-1-2009 Aku Bosan!

Today is the 11th day of the year. And to date I have done nothing substantial, as usual I’m always financially broke; A) not because I’m spending insanely but since I got a extra hands to hold nowadays.. nothing seems enough. B) Omg Damm my pay is so looooow… C) A Big chunk goes to family.

Let’s see on the lighter side.. My one and only customer are kind enough to still give me something to do in this dire economy meltdown. I should buckle up to gained more potential client, which of course am no where near there. A brief calculation I need a rough 526 sales per customer on average before I reaped my 1st sales commis.. OK.. NOT TOO BAD.

Wish to write more but these days are just not really inspired to write in..

New Year 2009!!

Happy New Year!! I’ve survived and aged another year. Yea~ it’s the time of the year where last New Year resolution is reviewed and new one are make. What can one says about theirs 2008? Well mine are not great; sometimes there were tears of sadness, exhaustion and frustration. But mostly was laughter (my 101 of disarming any dire situation), happiness (It could have been worse~) and satisfaction (despite of everything; I’m still here to gives thank to what I’ve gained too)

Of the 3 wishes I made, all is successful in their own twisted ways.. so cheers to a new year and another chance for us to get it right.

My New Year Resolution
1: To continuously improved on what ever gained!
2: Improves the quality of health around me and ultimately myself
3: Waste not~ want not~; It’s an uncertain time, spend more wisely.