My Life Story

A Life Mask Unfold

2011-03-11T00:30:00.002+08:00

I wore a mask that always smiled;
To hide my feelings behind a lie.

I had many friends;
With my mask, I was one of them.
But deep inside, I still felt empty,
Like I was missing a part of me.

Nobody could hear my plight at night
For I designed my mask to hide the lies.
Nobody could see the pain I was feeling
For I designed my mask to be laughing.

Behind all the smiles were the ache
And behind all the comfort were the fears.
Everything you think you see,
Wasn't everything there was to me.

Day by day,
I am slowly dying.
I struggle to carry on,
There was something missing..

Until now I'm still searching
For the thing that'll stop my ache.
For someone who'll erase my fears,
For the person who'll wipe my tears.

But till then I'll keep on smiling.
Hiding behind this mask I'm wearing.
Hoping one day I can smile,
Till then, I'll be here.. waiting.

-anon-

WOW 2011

2011-01-10T15:17:00.000+08:00

This post has been long overdue!

Always wanted to update this blog but couldn’t find the energy to do so. So many things have happen and yet not a sliver of updates for such a long time.

I think I need find better headings for the site as what is it for and what goals I wishes to accomplished by writing here.

Should I revamp this site to give a fresh new look?

Island Getaway

2010-07-13T00:37:00.002+08:00

Something which I did for a dear friend over the weekend.

The Blunder in Life

2010-07-07T01:38:00.001+08:00

I think at a certain point of life, there’s bound to be blunder and screw ups. For all the mistakes, shortcomings, and unwanted events that happen.. I wish it never did but it did.

Whatever the reason, if only I have taken the time to explore what happened, and learn what I need to know to correct the situation and to put the systems in place so that the same mistake does not recur.

The thing I fears most has happen and I do not have the proper solution.

Tio Ham Jing!!

2010-05-14T01:52:00.001+08:00

What a terrible month to begin with~ MAY!

First of all.. my client perfume factory caught fire and suffer tremendous losses which luckily was insured else I’m going to be in big trouble over undue collection. Last I check it’s a lil over 100k 0.o!

Then recently a client asked me to print a coupon cover, which is time consuming and technically challenged. -> Ultra thin profit.

It sounded so much simple.. 4 column of numbered coupon printed over a single A4 sheet of 52k.

The number runs from “0000001” to “100000”. Sure under normal circumstances it pretty easy… just 100,000 divide 4 = that’s 25,000 sheet of paper (1 set), leaving me with an extra 27k of unprinted sheet as spare for replacement. A normal stamping machine would probably go between 6k-7k an hour. A good uninterrupted run would have got the job done within 5~6 hour.

SAD~ but it doesn’t work that way~

The number format was… to prepare (1 set = 500 number), which makes the 4 columns within the A4 sheet to have a 000001, 000126, 000251, 000376 and ends with a 000125, 000250, 000375, 000500. The next set of numbers would be 000501, 000626, 000751, 000876 with an ending of 000625, 000750, 000875, 001000 and so forth.

Seems pretty easy right? NOT!! Numbering unit cannot be skipped and can only run the last digit on cycle at a time (there 4 numbering unit (6 digit each) on the cylinder rings) Which means for every set printed, It to be reset 4 times before another new set is printed!!

It work like this: - 100,00 number divide 500 number (1set) = 200 times of stopping machine. Which led to 200 stops X 4 times reset = 800 reset cycle.

The time consumption is absurd that a good run will make roughly 1,500 A4 sheets an hour. 1,500 divide 125 = 12 set. So out of 200 set divide 12 set = that 16.6 hours of serious back breaking labour. (Did I mention one need to squat or bend down to adjust the numbers sets on the cylinder with a stick?)

To made the matter worse.. due to client mix-up the numbering has changed to 000376, 000251, 000126, 000001 ending with 000500, 000375, 000250. This is only informed after some 30-40 sets.

I quote the machine operator own word “ Wa Tou Xiang!!” I Surrender!!!

Reflections..

2010-04-04T22:44:00.004+08:00

My original intention of so called blogging is to keep highlight of my life.. it has been 3 years now…guess nothing amazing happen. Sometimes I wonder if I should continue to update it.

Flipping through all previous post.. there’s so much of negativism….that probably shows how pathetic my life has been. I should have write more positive stuff....

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Today I went for Ching Ming, ever since my whole family took up Christianity they have neither prayed nor visit. Since I’m the only free soul in the house, my aunt asked me to go.. which I have been going for the past few year, but this year is somewhat different.. I actually bought the paper gift offering.

I’m no pious person by nature but if an action that appease the living and dead out of respect and traditional values that in turn strengthen ties… why not?

A Point to Ponder…

2010-03-01T21:01:00.002+08:00

Well CNY is finally over..everyone is back to work.. life goes on.

Pretty fun while it lasted anyway.. had my first ‘Kong Ming’ lantern lighted.. beautiful.

Post 人日 (•̪●)

2010-02-21T12:42:00.001+08:00

I’ve been drinking again 0.o!
Not much, but almost daily since CNY day 1
Have to pull the plug before the pain creeps in…
Yesterday bought a pair of running shoes..surprised?
Remember when I said gonna start exercising on 2010
Scout a few gym.. woa..pricey considering the fact that I might be lazy and would probably skip classes like before.
So let start with a new pair of running shoes…

爱与被爱，每个人都有不同の感受！叶子の离开，是风の追求？是树の不挽留？还是叶子の坚持？世界上总有许多の偶然与巧合，如果你能把握，绝对不会与它擦身而过！

CNY 2010

2010-02-14T23:18:00.000+08:00

Such a hot day today.. the 3mins rain in the evening didn’t do jack shit~
Hey it’s Chinese New Year 2010.. been bored since the day before.
Lonely I supposed.. better to start work soon.. 4 more days to go.
Such coincidence that it’s also St Valentine…

Didn’t go anywhere either, don’t feel like imposing onto others..
Everyone needs their spaces too…

Cerita Indah Namum Tiada Artinya

2010-02-04T23:51:00.005+08:00

Tak ingin ku menjadi bunga...
menangkup pesona sejuta mata...
indahku bukan untuk dijamah...
menawan hati yang gelisah...
aku bukan tanpa hati...
hanya bosan disakiti..
duri ini tumbuh dari luka...
melukai sebelum terluka...
lalu apa bedanya aku ngan bunga...
habis mekar, habis masa,
lalu layu kering dan mati..

-adhie-

cinta, apa se artinya? jujur aku takut jatuh cinta karena aku takut disakiti lagi~

Now and Then

2010-02-02T00:14:00.001+08:00

I am afraid that by observing objects with my eyes and trying to comprehend them with each of my other senses I might blind my soul altogether.

I quickly laugh at everything for fear of having to cry~

Coles Corner

2010-01-29T04:34:00.002+08:00

coles corner - a popular meeting place of old and new lovers

Hold back the night from us,
Cherish the light for us,
Don't let the shadows hold back the dawn.

Cold city lights glowing,
The traffic of life is flowing,
Out over the rivers and on into dark.

I'm going down town where there's music,
I'm going where voices fill the air,
Maybe there's someone waiting for me
With a smile and a flower in her hair

I'm going down town where there's people
The loneliness hangs in the air.
With no-one there real waiting for me,
No smile, no flower nowhere.
- Richard Hawley

Simply Beautiful...

Super Sien at this moment

2010-01-26T20:47:00.001+08:00

I really haven't had that exciting of a life. There are a lot of things I wish I would have done, instead of just sitting around and complaining about having a boring life. So I pretty much like to make it up. I'd rather tell a story about somebody else. - kurt cobain

came across this while surf reading.. in a sense it's probrably all true 0.o!

Mid Jan 2010

2010-01-21T02:21:00.001+08:00

Lately I’ve been thinking about my future plans, it not like I haven’t given it any thought but in a serious logical way. From a general stand view I ashamed to see myself as a failure.. haiz..

As of this current moment, I’m still technically broke, got nobody and for some reason every good little thing that comes along always end badly. Somehow I believe things wouldn’t be this way if I’ve been more shrewd and hardworking.

I have made a few new adjustments recently and been trying to do my ‘wish list’ of things that I’ve not done before due to procrastination and lack of self determination... I seriously hope that this time it’s for the better simply because I don’t think I have many time left to get it right.

Ham Pa Rang Par Lin Tao Month!

2010-01-14T01:45:00.001+08:00

I already felt the pinch of 2010.. susah la.. wish everything could be easier le. No need so troubled with so many ongoing issues.. must really buck up else sure die cham cham~

Si beh Dulan myself sometimes.. knowing problem sure mali but still wanna go ping piang~ must reli change this lousy attitude!

Procrastination!! This kuku habit also must buang~ say wanna go gym but until now also not yet go.. haiz hopeless.

Mid life crisis sula mao mali liao..as the day inches closer I more kiasi.. siao lo.. am I suffering from early mid life syndrome ??

I just realized, it's so lonely being free...

New Year 2010

2010-01-01T02:17:00.002+08:00

2009 has been a truly exciting year in terms of work, previously I’ve been complaining much; but after muddling around for quite some time, I grew fond of my work and with minor mental changes I believe there much improvement could be made.
Although the matter of the heart didn’t progress as I would like it to be, nevertheless everyone is fine... just an empty void again waiting to be filled. May there be happiness always.
Celebration wise... I thought of spending it quietly alone...but then a simple yumcha session with a dear friend seems like a better choice to spend the hours away...

My New 2010 Resolution
1)To work very hard and command all respect from everyone around ; wa mao kuasa dan duit!!
2)To better myself for the coming days ; exercise le~
3)To find an everlasting love~

Love ... is not merely a feeling

2009-12-29T01:49:00.001+08:00

This would probably be my last entry on it. Every now and then problem persist in our daily life’s whether we like it or not.

The thing is we could only evade such problem for a certain period of time; eventually one has to come to own term and find a viable solution to end it all.

It has been a sweet, sad and unforgotten year, but what doesn’t destroy will only makes one stronger. I’m glad I didn’t make any impulsive decision that would make thing turn otherwise.

Perhaps the joy of laughter’s is better enjoyed over a cup of iced coffee….
我不在乎天长地久, 只在乎曾经拥有

Christmas 2009

2009-12-25T03:05:00.002+08:00

Time passes by so fast this year, one couldn’t help to wonder “Wow~ did I do anything significant? Did I have leave a good impact dealings with peoples around me?”
I have learned an important lesson:-

To Declare love to someone you know does not love you, cannot love you is COERCIVE"

Contrarily to believe no matter how romantic one can be, it needs another partner to appreciate it. It takes TWO to tango.

只要抓住一次机会，人生就会多姿多彩

yea~ it's the moment of the year where one get a few days left to reflect on their yesterday and start anew another year ٩(●̮̮̃•̃)۶

Maternal Grandfather.

2009-11-12T00:04:00.001+08:00

My maternal grandfather passed away today. Although I do not know him very well nor he was every kid’s dream of a grandfather figure. As I can recall he never treated me bad; a typical Chinese grandfather I supposed. Wish I could know him better but other than occasional yearly gathering. Celebrations and smoking joint session, I never really had the chance to connect to him.

He was the only grandfather I knew off since my paternal grandfather passes away a long time before I was born.The one thing I know of him is he is responsible for the old wooden Connaught Bridge a long time ago. The bridge has since been replaced by a concrete ones bridging across Klang River. That was his legacy.

I always felt that regardless of what one’s deed was, upon his dead all should be forgiven and pass. May his soul rest in peace.

11/11/2009

MoonLighter~ 09/09/09

2009-09-09T23:59:00.000+08:00

What an auspicious day it is.. Chinese beliefs that in whatever things we’re doing or dealing with, it is customary to ‘buy’ good favours~ between a RM 300 summon and a RM 30 ‘tea money’.. I chooses the latter, it’s not that I encourage such practices.. but it make good common sense when it come to tight pocket.. sigh~

Today also mark my 1st attempt to ‘moonlighting’. It’s not that I deliberately do it, because priority will be there and a second alternative should come in place simply getting an opportunity doesn’t knock often.. so why not?

chinese 7 1/2 month~

2009-09-03T01:44:00.002+08:00

The Ghost Festival : 中元节

old people used to say " Don't roam around at night, stay home! after you accidently step on dirty thing~" The earliest memories I have is probrably growing up with my aunt, planting joss stick and candle by the roadside.. tossing 'shit candy' (colourful poo shaped candy on a button biscuit) around the pavement, not sure if i'm supposed to pick those up to eat~ but i kinda remember doing so.

Anyway it the thing of the past, since my family doesn't pray but nevertheless there no harm trying to observe this ancient tradition even when one is not pious~

August Delight~

2009-08-04T01:10:00.002+08:00

Ouch~ my dorsalgia is hurting like hell~ any sudden movement seems to radiate the pain to the extremities.

This is the few moment where people see me walk like an old man.. hahaha~ ouch!

July Campur campur post

2009-07-27T02:26:00.001+08:00

Aiya.. I felt really bad that I left this blog is a miserable state. It just that always whenever something happen, I wishes to blog in the evening but never did simply it either I’m still to busy finding solution or just plain to lazy to type it in.

So I’m just going to categorize the important issue.

Work- I really got tired of constant cannot do quote thingy, the company that I’m still in spens ten of thousand for software that is unfriendly; more to say they couldn’t use it well and can’t be carry around. So I decided to write ‘all in one pages’ on excel. It turn out just fine! Just need to repair a few kinks here and there. Solution to math’s is simple but formulating it onto excel recognize formula is disastrous! So gods help me please so I can make it a better tool.

My latest attempt to further enhance my lousy as ever sales is being banned and facing a horrible setback. OMFG! What the hell you say you don’t like runner fees??? Everyone bloody knows that you been feeding the top gun for such a long time and you do not allow me to do so because of your biased opinion??? The wastage you have piling up each month is 10 times more than the fee commands…refusing to pay for a meal you finishes and say it no good…I spat on u!

Life- what is the value of freedom? If consideration is based on length of time or quality time, which will prevail? Currently I’m placing bets on quality of time. This week met up a few classmates since primary after someone posted up an old photo in FB. How we have all aged.. some are balding, pot bellies and all. Amazing how FB hook up lost contacts over a single picture.

My old man is in the hospital again 2 days back suffering from chest pain. Nope no heart attack~ another case of heart burn.. Hope everything turn better as he get discharged later.

Sad Fortuity

2009-07-01T01:42:00.001+08:00

This week couldn’t be possibly much worse~. For start.. I lose my car key and couldn’t seems to find it anywhere, I’m seriously considering if I should have all the car lock changed or just get a spare key replacement.

I’ve started on eastern meds course this week.. Yes! I have been ill, should I not take heed now, one could very well sees my name etched in some tombstone 5 yrs from now.. Wonder if anyone would misses me then?

Currently having this excruciating leg cramping bouts of gout attacks.. it could be the meds side effect….

特別的愛給特別的妳

2009-05-31T21:43:00.000+08:00

沒有承諾　卻被你抓得更緊
沒有了你　我的世界雨下個不停
我付出一生的時間　想要忘記你
但是回憶　回憶　回憶
從我心裡　跳出來　擁抱你

特別的愛　給特別的你
我的寂寞　逃不過你的眼睛
特別的愛　給特別的你
你讓我越來越不相信自己

我還聽見　你的聲音
輕輕縈繞著我的心
我還不能　接受分離
就是永遠不能在一起

Tua Setahun Lagi~

2009-05-25T23:13:00.000+08:00

now that I am older~ I am ever determined to be cheerful and happy, in whatever situation I may be; for I have also learned from experience that the greater part of our happiness or misery depends upon our dispositions, and not upon our circumstances. (•̪●)

Altruism

2009-05-05T02:03:00.002+08:00

"deliberate pursuit of the interests welfare of others"

Woo.. I'm ashamed that it’s been so long since I punch in here.. so much been happening that I just do not know where to begin…

Anyway a important note in my life.. apparently I was asked “u still waiting for my reply?” it took me a full 2 minutes to answer that….am I hesitating?

My answer was “Well.. it's pass due right? ”

2 year and 5 days isn’t really a long time, but many things has changed since then........I’m forever in your gratitude...

Runaway~

2009-04-03T05:45:00.001+08:00

Am so sorry....

April's Fool

2009-04-01T00:04:00.000+08:00

My heart seems to beat a little faster these days
Maybe it’s the thought of life changing unexpectedly

I’ve heard so many tales of untold stories
But now you're gone.. a chance we never had

I dreamt of joy and warmth
You are our sorrow and our joy. There's love in every tear.

Answers to questions, questions to ponder,
Limited only by what we initially thought were right.

There were no tears in my eyes
But a pain in my heart….of an emptiness in my soul

Just know my love goes deep and strong, I’ll forget you never.
The chance we had, but never had, and yet will have forever.

ROOT

2009-03-26T01:14:00.000+08:00

Wow.. almost 25 days of non posting. I should be better than this.. totally ashamed.
Ching Ming is just around the corner, over the years we asian especially the Chinese community will clean and pray for our long gone and dead ancestor cemetery. An event to commemorate and honor to their forefathers

Since young I find it puzzling to pray to a headstone of my grandfather and other relatives that I’ve not seen; they passed on a long time ago. It is always my wishes to track my lineage. All I know was that my grandfather came to then Malaya to escape the war. There’s a few version that I’ve heard from the elders which I’m unsure of.

Questions like ‘Who am I?’ ‘Where do we come from?’ ‘How many generation/clan members we have?’ always runs through my mind. Apparently there’s a clan book that trace my entire ancestor back to 22 generations!! *if say an average person were to get married at age of 20+ that makes it almost 400+ years*, but the book is lost over the years. A few years back I sort of asked around my relatives if they know who stills have a copy of book. No one in the families in Malaysia has it, I believes half if not all my younger generation has not seen it.

I’ve managed to trace the book through a relative in Singapore; due to health reason He wasn’t well to travel to Malaysia until last week to give me a copy. I’m overjoyed that finally that my curiosity over the years is going to be answered, but now I have a huge problem… I CAN’T BLOODY READ CHINESE!!!

I’ve heard wonderful tales when I was kid that a lot of my ancestors are scholars and some were prime ministers in the olden days. The best deciphers I gotten today is that all previous generation middle name is based on a poem.*my current generation do not practice middle name anymore* I only got the half the poem from the 13th generation onwards.. the 1st part is missing…

Of manipulation and exploitation

2009-03-01T01:17:00.004+08:00

"Writing gives you the illusion of control, and then you realize it's just an illusion, that people are going to bring their own stuff into it." - David Sedaris

Having read and understand that. ~ Tonight I have overheard the wildest accusation yet. Apparently someone been keeping tab on what I wrote and accused me of corrupting images and reputation through blogs.

http://voxgemini.blogspot.com/2007/04/foreword.html - clearly states my claims.

There 2 thing I would never do: - Manipulation and Exploitation.
Manipulating is cruel and exploitation is downright ugly.
Seems anyone can come and go from this website without comment most of the time. It makes me wonder: are we so insulated/isolated we cannot share an idea?

A letter to Douche and Scum Bag

2009-02-23T03:11:00.014+08:00

I wanted to dispute the reality and facts.

Malaysia Employment Act 1955
I.) “Contract of Service (10.1)” clearly state a written contract of employment must be given to every employee where the employment period exceeds 1 month. The contract must include particulars of the terms and conditions of employment and notice period required to terminate it.”
A contract of employment shall contain particulars of:
o the names of employer and employee
o the date when the employment began
o the place of work or an indication of that and of the address of the employer
o the title of the job which the employee is employed to do or a brief description of the work for which a person is employed
o the commencement salary and where applicable other allowances and bonus
o any terms and conditions relating to :
 probation period
 hours of work
 entitlement to holidays, including public holidays
 overtime pay and leave in lieu
 incapacity for work due to sickness or injury, including any provision for sick pay and medical bills
 EPF and SOCSO schemes

Due to the sensitivity of a certain illiterate person, I had this post omitted and removed

5th edit~

Sufferings and Oppositions

2009-02-21T03:00:00.004+08:00

I’ve been slacking off a lot lately in updating blog. Not that I didn’t wanted to but couldn’t find the right time to sit down quietly and my photo cable is in the offices. Though I did load some pics on the laptop in office but I didn’t quite have the time to write.

Anyway.. FEBRUARY SUCKS! *literally speaking ~ Ahaks.. ok so here what been going on.. I’m broke~ purchased the SPYDER RS and accessories cost me a bomb. Lady luck been kind to me this CNY~ I don’t gamble so like usual I would donate through investment through CNY, but this year didn’t do so.. I tagged along friends to genting.. and viola….I got a good 30 fold returns ^.^ V

It almost month ends..I’m eating dust with no sales..* sad..panic..sad..panic..damm.. * hopefully tomorrow the lady confirm an order with me. The only thing confirm is next month volume..

Ok.. My higher management are a bunch of retard, douche bags and scumbag. Why??
Let see.. I have an ‘extension of probabtion’ letter *yerp.. I spell it the way it written!!*
Due to these unsatisfactory reasons.
Reason No 1: 7 days U/L *omg!*
Reason No 2: 8 days ½ U/L *Damm..I’m good!*
Reason No 3: 61 days late *Woahh!!! Il suffit de voir les chiffres!!
Reason No 4: Attire~ Almost- (mostly after lunch) wearing slipper to Office. This disregard of the Company reputation, image and safety of the factory *I almost blurt out my morning breakfast from laughing too hard*

I’m so fucking hates all these Machiavellianism Assholes! - any means (however unscrupulous) can be used by an Arse in order to create and maintain Arsetistic autocratic government. Question now is.. Am I Gonna Do Anything or Say Something About This??

I attend a major PKR dinner in PJ today.. interesting.

24-01-09 till 26-01-2009

2009-01-28T04:23:00.007+08:00

Wanted to blog so much this few days but couldn’t find the right time nor the energy to do when I’m finally free..

24-01-2009 Saturday

Yeaa~! The final day of work……

Uh hur~ We loves our chickens!! o.0

Boxes and boxes of wrapped gifts~

Mountain of hampers~
Very nice~~ I got Shopping vouchers instead~ hahaha... great cuz I havent done my shopping then.. a true last minute shopper like usual....

25-01-2009 Sunday

In all my life except the younger years where I go commando, I’ve always been a briefs person. This year I decided to opt for boxer instead. It felt seriously very ~~loose~~ nice :x

Done with shopping and gift~ went for a German fantasy novel based movie instead “Titenherz”

This caught the attention of my sis.. “she says “Kor~ let’s go do something nice before CNY and donate blood” The only time I donated blood then was years ago during an emergencies. So I’m all in for the good cause.. It’s seems our blood bank is running critically low due to dengue and yellow fever crisis.
My sis and I are a fan of flowing blood through the tubes….it just goes red…loop and loop and loop.. what a sight

End the evening with a prayer at PJ Siamese temple; prayed for all humanity and loved ones. It was raining!! there goes my effort to keep a clean car for tomorrow..

26-01-2009 Monday

Happy Chinese New Year!!!

D.O.E

2009-01-22T03:21:00.002+08:00

Another few days more it going to be CNY 2009.. as usual I have not done any new year shopping yet. Wonder what I am going to do with my 8 days leave. It’s been a busy since last week because I had to deal with a DOE issue..apparently some sludge got in the drainage system and everyone just kick the ball to me expecting me to solve it. Sometimes I wonder why am I always the one solving problem?? Am I a magnet to problem solving??

I’m supposed to liaison with the officer for the entire problem. Since I know nothing of environment; I did my own studies and interviews, classification and proper labeling plus allocation, draft my own filtration system, built one myself *got help from my neighbour*, installed the filter cage myself *only to get the 1st prototype dimension wrong*

I’ve submitted photographical event of before and after, draft letter and have a meeting with the DOE officer yesterday for further action. A reasonable compound is given, a token for the fast action and compliance with the issue. Haiz…. Let hope everything is fine now onwards.. a second meeting and report is scheduled after CNY, hopefully I can write an appeal to further reduce the compound.

Did I mention that I am still an “Apprentice Salesman”?? I’m pretty sure such issue doesn’t fall under sales and marketing. There ain’t no one gonna pat your back when you save the day.. bah 0.o!

Bottle Gifts~

2009-01-16T14:46:00.003+08:00

Martell XO Suprême (Extra Old) ...lovely lovely piece..

Yerp~ it's the time of the year again where I receives my bottle to add to my collection.. a snippet from the maker

“Deep gold amber.. full, rich and powerful, with a hint of dry fruit. Complex, full of flavour. Hints of almond and vanilla with a long aftertaste”

Lonely Driver~

2009-01-13T03:48:00.002+08:00

Let’s see.. last night I pick Sis A from KL, and sent her to KLIA a while back. Then this coming noon need to sent MCML to LCCT and Sis B is going to LCCT this Wednesday, where I’m the chauffeur.. gonna be so dry on petrol deii~!!

If I take in consideration one round trip (1) is roughly $35 including toll and petrol;
January Quota would be: 1 + 1 + 1 + 1 + 1 + 1 + (1 *soon coming home again Sis A) + (1 + 1 *previous Sis A trip for January) = 9 x $35 = $ 315……… I’m sooo..... -.=!

11-1-2009 Aku Bosan!

2009-01-11T05:21:00.000+08:00

Today is the 11th day of the year. And to date I have done nothing substantial, as usual I’m always financially broke; A) not because I’m spending insanely but since I got a extra hands to hold nowadays.. nothing seems enough. B) Omg Damm my pay is so looooow… C) A Big chunk goes to family.

Let’s see on the lighter side.. My one and only customer are kind enough to still give me something to do in this dire economy meltdown. I should buckle up to gained more potential client, which of course am no where near there. A brief calculation I need a rough 526 sales per customer on average before I reaped my 1st sales commis.. OK.. NOT TOO BAD.

Wish to write more but these days are just not really inspired to write in..

New Year 2009!!

2009-01-01T08:35:00.002+08:00

Happy New Year!! I’ve survived and aged another year. Yea~ it’s the time of the year where last New Year resolution is reviewed and new one are make. What can one says about theirs 2008? Well mine are not great; sometimes there were tears of sadness, exhaustion and frustration. But mostly was laughter (my 101 of disarming any dire situation), happiness (It could have been worse~) and satisfaction (despite of everything; I’m still here to gives thank to what I’ve gained too)

Of the 3 wishes I made, all is successful in their own twisted ways.. so cheers to a new year and another chance for us to get it right.

My New Year Resolution
1: To continuously improved on what ever gained!
2: Improves the quality of health around me and ultimately myself
3: Waste not~ want not~; It’s an uncertain time, spend more wisely.

Christmas Crasis

2008-12-25T23:37:00.000+08:00

Last night party was OK I guess. Mum and sis went to Dubai for holidays a few days ago thus leaving dad and I home alone till New Year. Initially I tot of doing nothing but decided to cook up a small party for my friends. The night ended quite early because someone had to go home early and other have work the next day. I’m tired as hell too..felt like boozing to oblivion but refrain myself.

“Happy Merry Christmas and Happy Birthday Sis”

I’ve spent my whole day lazing around; didn’t call anyone. A part of me feels like going out; another part of me is just too lazy to entertain people. The house sure is quiet with no one at home.

I kept asking myself lately; Am I Happy? Are things less complicated nowadays? Why do I always felt heaviness in the heart when I have everything turning better?

we all have our own idiosyncrasy…..

Senile~

2008-12-17T01:48:00.003+08:00

*Overheard Conversation~

A: Question of the day: What ever circumstances you must not say the word SEVEN!It’s forbidden!

B: Ok….~

A: What’s One plus One?

B: TWO~

A: Good! Now tell me what’s TWO plus TWO?

B: FOUR~

A: Great! What’s FOUR plus FOUR then??

B: EIGHT!

A: Excellent! Now you just say the forbidden EIGHT!!

B: No~ I did not!! You say it was SEVEN!!

A: Gotcha~

B: …………… =.=!!

Bukit Maung Fortress War Journalist

2008-12-10T09:21:00.003+08:00

Something I did last weekend.

A breakthrough!!

2008-12-02T00:40:00.000+08:00

Today I’m really happy.. cuz finally…after a month of doing ‘Sales’ I’ve got a breakthrough!!!

It’s really a bad time nowadays to do business dues to economic downturns and it going to get worse. Especially in the printing industry... where it’s more like a supporting a supporting industry, we catch and tag on manufacturer thriving business.

It’s a cruel industry where everyone undercuts everyone and you need serious contact; know this of this and that of that to even penetrate the stiff market, else one could easily find himself standing at the guardhouse. Since I’m so new and I do not know anyone, I usually started off from the guardhouse, worked myself up to the reception and if I get lucky I get to meet someone in the purchasing department.

For me.. I think *most of the people I know and met says that to me* I’ll be having the hardest time coming in this industry, but at the same time a good period of time to really learn given the chance, of which till today I’m still learning in this selfish environment.

At last today I’m given an opportunity to perform.. a P.O worth RM840…..from a 500k commission quota…. Hahahahaha…..amusing.. aihz.. last…I broken the curse!

'Buaya' The continuation.

2008-12-01T14:58:00.004+08:00

This couldn’t be done sooner.. cuz.. I don’t have the opportunity and am too lazy until someone “hey continue ur story leh..............” me to write what has transpired this few days.

Now I know why people always say guys backside itchy… but I did with a sincere honest intention to hooky my friend *nope that half the truth…actually am damm curious as hell* :x It goes like this (SMS).:-

28 Nov, 6.59pm

A) Miss XxX, sorry for the interruption by my old man today. Have a nice evening

B) Soli 4 late reply.. Jus finish my tuition class. It ok. Actually nice to meet u n ur daddy. Have a nice day!

*under normal circumstances the A message is sufficient.. but noo.. the sense of curiosity got the better of me..

A) Hehe~ Tuition 0.o?! Eh erm u’re a teacher or a student? Cool, maybe next time can yum cha at Starbuck in KP, support my friend abit, my treat =) , G 9

B) I am a part time teacher ya…

*Uh waa… now I feel like enrolling for tuition… just kidding.. :x

A) Ooh…Wow….hardworking girl! Well it’s dinner time now, nice smsing you. Talk to u next time. Errr we’re friend now right? =)

B) Bcos I liked teaching ya.. Enjoy ur dinner with ur famili ya.. =) Nice to meet u n help me sent regrd 2 ur daddy.

*See.. I’m a straight guy also.. can actually text and chat with cabor wan… if I want la ofcourse.. -.=!

29th Nov, 7.50pm (Starbuck with Mike..) wanted to go to dinner…

A) hi, busy?

B) Nolah.. Watching tv. How bout u? Takin dinner ya?

*Try so hard to hook mike…Duwan call afraid meet Godzilla ar?? :x

A )Now this is the problem, at Starbuck with the manager, my friend. We’re wondering what’s for dinner, you eaten? Erm you don’t mind I give you a call perhaps?

B) Yup.. Me just ate. =)

*It’s the sign!! Ask mike to call, we debated so long.. and laugh so hard that people might think we’re loony or something -.< this coming 28th December there will be a Cofffee tasting Experience instore.. you need participants -> there’s your good excuse to ~~BUAYA~~ call!! Wuss! =)

A) well..just wondering if u wish to accompany us for dinner/tea, called you also no pickup de.. * Ya.. I call… *

B ) xSiNx, really apologize jus now can’t able 2 answer ur call, one of my student parent called me just now… regrd d dinner, I think I can’t make it ya bcos 2nit I dun have transport, May b nex time ya, I treat u ya! =) Enjoy your dinner with ur friend!

*if I continue to call.. I 200% sure kena… but then better not.. it like only 6 sms nia..self restriction imposed! :x

A) It’s cool.. next time it is then. My friend is kinda interested bout my dad conversation with u actually.. hahahahah.. have a nice evening ya. =)

B )Really?? Hee..heee.. nex month UOB will have Christmas event. If u free, u n ur daddy r welcome 2 join the event!

*woo.. I put my friend on table.. u also put my dad on table.. ada bahaya ni.. anyway I left a contact at SB’s guest list.. mike better call her :x

The evening sms ends with :-

B) 3 wishes for u b4 I sleep 2 9..

*skip 3 sms line*

Good nitez *star blink blink emotiko*

*skip 3 sms line lagi*

Sweet dreamz *more star blink blink emotiko*

*skip 3 sms line lagi lagi* tired de need scroll so much~

Sleep tight *It’s more star blinks~*

Woo… ok… enuff edi to settle people’s curiosity thirst.

What a Setup!

2008-11-29T02:13:00.006+08:00

8am: the alarm went off..*fark.. can’t get used to the new tone.. I’VE got to get back the “Lonely in Gorgeous”* snooze mode it.. 9 min of peace and peace and peace…..zzz

*distance ringing from an unknown number* Tiu!! Why so early 0.o! ok who is calling me wor??

Me : yea? *this couldn’t be good new~ *
Dad : Son….I’m in a big trouble….I’m soo hi…
Me : ?!!? *it was raining cows and elephant yesterday, got home round 3am..Dad is still not back then* Okay.. what happen and where are you??
Dad : last night I had a little to much to drink and I slept in the car by the road side, woke up this morning… my wallet , handset and car key are missing…bla bla bla *unclear direction of where he is, he is stuck in middle of the town actually* could you please bring the spare key and come meet me here.
Me :*wahlaoeh* harrr?? Ok la.. *Go on to tiu him..Karma man! It’s Karma~, but kinda relieve that Dad is OK!* I come now.. *knn there goes my 'Just In Time' for work*

WTF CIBAI! KLANG IS SOOO FOOK nowadays with ongoing construction of flyover..and the heavy downpour last night isn’t making it easier, what used to be a 5 min drives is taking over 40min!

So there I was driving toward my old man.. Wahkaoz~! Dad is standing smiling
happily with a huge bottle of Beer waving at me..siao liao la this fella kana rob and losses everything and still got mood to drink~ kanina..

Anyone wish to guess what are the first words when he greeted me?

Dad :Son..I’m hungry, let go someplace to eat first can ar?

*kanasai…zzzzz* we had Bah Kut Teh. Dad relays his ordeal of what happen last night,
how he had a good time drinking 21yrs old Royal Salute~. The Bah Kut Teh session is so good that before I knew it.. it’s time for a 2nd large bottle of beer~

We went home after meal to cancel all banking cards and get ready to replaces whatever that has been stolen. *So much for Punching Card On time !!* Dad sneak a bottle of brandy along the way. I thought he is like going to drink in some kopitiam after we done with important matters.

As I parked my car, Dad reaches out for my half finish mineral bottle and asked “I’m thirsty..drinkable gar?” before I could proper answer… he open the bottle of brandy and and start filling in the other half of the mineral bottle… Wahlao!! Chinese Tea!!! Wtf~

Of which he happily sipped the whole time in the police station, the transport dept, the phone provider and the bank. Just to end the day, Dad buaya the nice officer girl while waiting for his replacement card and loss report :-

Dad : Miss, this is my son~ he is 2x yrs old and he doesn’t have a gf~ and I think you’re much younger right?*sweat~*
Officer : Uh ur *I think she blush and nodded*

“wahlao damm siasui la.. Dad go on to QnA’s the poor girl. I heard enough and went out for a puff and come back after”

Dad : So miss..you’re from penang and you’re not a local here. Good! My son can show you around, it’s good that young people like you both can mingle around~ Why don’t you give my son a name card so he can call you sometimes…

*Siao liao lo.. 0.o! How many of us actually have our Dad picking up girl right in front our eyes and for us?? I swore that the girl is like so kena tangkap wey… She actually did as told, I’m too speechless to say anything and obligingly took the card and kept it in my wallet.

Dad :Son… why don’t you too give her you name card so she can remember you by. Thank you Miss ar, if I said anything wrong today please blame it on the liquor.

Apparently Dad told her of the mineral bottle content. *Dad have the tendencies to put people in such a difficult situation.. sweat~ sweat~* As we heads toward the car…

Dad :See it’s so easy to pickup girl… I think girl suit you la, fit your size..

*cibai.. wanna say me fat say la.. kanina~ go such a big round to kena me.. -.+!!

我比誰都清楚-陳曉東

2008-11-28T04:23:00.001+08:00

拼拼湊湊　愛的故事
簡簡短短　你的心事
我不在你身邊的日子
是什麼讓你改變堅持
讓人心疼　你的樣子
吞吞吐吐　欲言又止
如果有那麼難以啟齒
我不問　你又何必掩飾

你過的好辛苦
我比誰都清楚
感情路沒有勉強的幸福
一開始就給的糊裡糊塗
想回頭郤又不知如何結束

你裝作很滿足
我比誰都清楚
你的笑　隱約透露著孤獨
快樂背後　深深藏著痛楚
堅強的面對然後偷偷的哭
偷偷的哭

a long rainy night.. couldn't bring myself to say it out, another time perhaps~

Touché!

2008-11-26T21:19:00.001+08:00

"To love is to suffer. To avoid suffering one must not love. But then one suffers from not loving. Therefore to love is to suffer, not to love is to suffer. To suffer is to suffer. To be happy is to love. To be happy then is to suffer. But suffering makes one unhappy. Therefore, to be unhappy one must love, or love to suffer, or suffer from too much happiness. I hope you're getting this down." - Woody Allen

Lately so many crazy personal issues cropping up, find it even difficult to describe such situation. Then there so many opinions from everyone, good and bad which reminds me of zewt’s reader comment.

“Opinions are like assholes - everybody has one and it's usually full of shit.”

"...you were my heart's desire before you were known to me. I beheld your features with my soul ere I saw them with my eyes; rumors, that told me of you, were the first to deal my wound." – Ouch!!

But when I decide to run all those opinion through and through…it becomes a cognitive dissonance, caught in an Eros vs. Caritas ways..

"If Love's a Sweet Passion, why does it torment?
If a Bitter, oh tell me whence comes my content?
Since I suffer with pleasure, why should I complain,
Or grieve at my Fate, when I know 'tis in vain?
Yet so pleasing the Pain is, so soft is the Dart,
That at once it both wounds me, and Tickles my Heart."
-Henry Purcell

月亮之上

2008-11-17T00:54:00.002+08:00

I gazed into the distance beyond the bright moon,
How many dreams are still freely flying around?
Forget the past and seal the sorrow.

Let’s us meet again on the eternal road.
Life is fated despite the surging ebb tides
As long as you’re there it’s a paradise.

Who is there calling?
With such a deep feeling?
Felt my yearning akin a drifting white cloud

See the grazing horses in the east,
And the herding sheep in the west.
The burning love songs echo’s till dawn.

Throughout the ups and downs of life,
Who will be at your side?
With your gentle gaze brightening the solemn night.

skeleton in the closet

2008-11-15T00:30:00.000+08:00

Lately I’m not sure what am I doing… things are just moving so fast that at time I felt scared, simply because all the good thing that happen to me before doesn’t last long. There’s so many thing I wish to know and ask but I’m always afraid fearing for the unknown. Most of the time situation doesn’t permit to do so either.

Although as happy as I am now.. but always…always.. behind the back of my mind…. I felt like a skeleton in the closet.

最近比較煩~ (•̪●)

2008-11-11T14:03:00.001+08:00

I do not know how I started this but lately I landed in a serious situation that I have absolute no control or an answer to it….lose my head~

“I slept and dreamt,
That life was joy.
I woke and saw,
That life was duty”

I’ve always think that if we run too fast, climb to high naturally if we’re to stumble and fall.. the damages too is unbearable. Perhaps I merely seek a sign of assurance and understanding from all the jive lately.

Office Boredom!

2008-11-08T16:26:00.000+08:00

Here I am sitting alone in da office figuring what I should do after 1pm…. Then it suddenly hits me.. after 3months+ of working a FULL SATURDAY EACH WEEK!!

How the hell a salesman supposed to find sales on Saturday afternoon when majority if not all purchasing dept finishes work at 1pm??? Alahai.. diuz…

Gao Gao Lat Dao Jing~

2008-11-07T02:36:00.005+08:00

I just do not know where to begin….haiz~ haiz~
kinda remind me of the selfless and selfish concept
Did it just happen or I just allows it to happen.. adoi so pening now..

P.S I got Kidnap!! and I'm a happy hostage! =)
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Economy is so slow lately….what a really bad time to be doing sales..though it is infact the best time to learn >.o!

Cousin Bonding

2008-10-29T02:13:00.002+08:00

What a hot day.. aiyaiyai~.. the air conditioner decided to take 5 again... come to think of it.. this unit is almost 8 year o.0? It’s been fairly interesting month, wanted to blog over a lot of issues really but the inspiration to write miraculously disappears when I start typing in the middle of the night.

Since a month ago, I started to like ‘cousin bonding’ *if such a word exist* . I dunno.. over the year I rarely keep in touch with all my cousins… the only time I get to see them is during CNY and other family occasion. Over the years I felt like I losing touch with my cousins.. most of the time.. I’m just there for courtesy, respect and the foods; small talk is not my forte…

So I try to catch up on what I’ve been missing for the longest time now… meeting them and ‘facebook’ is a good place to starts~ *since it come into existence, I never bother toying with it until recently*. It started off with 1 cousin and wahpiang.. now everyone who is ‘IT savvy’ is in... and latest trend….random posting of everyone’s ‘zaman kanak kanak riang’ – I truly surprised that I don’t even recall any of the moments in all the photo posted; I rarely took photo of myself and never kept any photo of myself either.

I just discover this a week ago.. finally got it done today.. sheesh 0.o!
This is the 2nd time now…..I bought my car on MAY…. and it stretch to…. Hahahahaha.. Lucky that I didn’t have any bad moment with law during the free illegal months on road… tiu mou??

No Encore~

2008-10-23T02:25:00.000+08:00

Lately I’ve been doing a lot of silent thinking which include pacing around the street with a cigarette in the middle of the night. As positive as I am facing the daily struggle of the world, towards anyone or people in general; every moment I spent when I’m alone are… alone. There hasn’t been anyone to shares my deepest thought and views; I’ve only myself to talked too..

Everyday is the same, I listens and observed people’s ordeal akin watching an orchestra, a drama bursting in to life. The funny thing is.. most of the time I’m just there… if the world is a stage then I’m merely an audience watching a play after play unfolds.

Travail~ travail~ = ....?

2008-10-18T23:27:00.000+08:00

Today marked an important day as a printing salesman. It was my 1st attempt, along the way I got lost *shitz~ faulty memory* , I visualized and practice on my speech.
It’s common failing at 1st attempt but I guess ladyluck been good to me lately. Not only was I entertained but I was given 4 sample jobs to be quoted!!

My 3 months of crashing inside the factory understanding and arranging factory management paid off~. I was really happy though even it was just a quote; it doesn’t matter if I get the business or not but am happy because people are willing to spent a moment and gives me the chance on 1st try. =)

Now let hope those calculative blokes won’t botched this opportunity~. Guess the next phase is to learn how to calculate costing; assuming people are willing to teach. I’ve been studying the system; I guess it not hard to complies and write a programming to suit my work.

ma cherie, je voudrais vous êtes ici pour partager ce moment avec ...

Another phase of life~

2008-10-15T23:44:00.001+08:00

FRIM KEPONG

Ah.. finally after all the difficulties.. congratulation my friend!.. live a good married life.

Aimless~

2008-10-13T20:35:00.002+08:00

I thought I’ll see this day,
I thought I’ll feel this way,
I’m left with emptiness
Akin a glass of water
That is neither half filled
Nor half full.

If love is a universal emotion, the goal that we all seek, the prize that can make our lives complete and whole; it is both timeless and in too many instances, transient~. Then the pain it often causes is equally universal…

Hari Raya 2008

2008-10-01T22:23:00.005+08:00

Every year during Raya without fail, I would have a feast of good ole beef, lamb curry rendang served with best basmati rice cooked by my staff in the Factory. Just yesterday I was wondering what to do for this holiday or would anyone called me. Apparently someone still remember me.. it felt really good to see my old staff still surviving despite under such dire circumstances. A little life too has brought happiness to their struggling life..a day and a year old exactly today.

It has been a year and 2 month + now since I been inside… As I stepped in, am not sure if I should be happy or sad at the state of the Factory. It’s been vacant for so long, quiet with overgrown grass and scrubs. I always called this place a forest of green vegetation. It wasn’t too different from what it was now when I was small.. my gramp's land, with ponds and well, growing vegetables and fruit trees.

Today it just a vacant land with empty structure…..

2 week hiatus

2008-09-23T03:43:00.002+08:00

Hmm.. been like 2 week didn’t update.. not that I didn’t want to but there isn’t anything worth mentioning or maybe I wish not. Except for Sunday, rest of the days are spent working in FULL.. damm.. no life.. wouldn’t want to blog about working environment, just afraid one day in future I read back to this day.. all working stuff how dull..

Maybe a lil on working class people, apparently most people are hard to please but I try hard to get along and mingle with those bloke.. positive result so far; people are opening up. Often people say “You are Taukey Kia, people automatically will ‘keng you sha hun’ *give you face* “ which is true to a certain degree but if one being an asshole, I’m 100% sure people wouldn’t give a rat ass or invite you over for lunch right?

…..Four men go on a hunting trip. The only hotel in town is almost full, so they have to bunk two to a room. No-one wants to share room with Joe because he snores, so others decide to take turns. The first man stays with Joe and comes to breakfast the next morning with his hair a mess and his eyes bloodshot.
“What happened to you?” ask his friends.
“Joe snored so loudly I just sat up and watched him all night” he moans.
The following evening, it is the second chap’s turn. He also look awful the next morning.
”Oh, man, that Joe shakes the roof” he says.
“I sat up and watched him all night too.”
The third night is Frank’s turn; a burly ex-rugby player: a man’s man. Next morning he comes down to breakfast looking very fresh.
“Good morning” he say brightly.
The first two men are incredulous. “Wow, what happened?”
“Well” says Frank.
“We got ready to bed, I tuck Joe in, wished him sweet dreams and kissed him on the forehead. He sat up and watched me all night.” – Lesley Beasent

Lmao! Something funny I read couple of days ago that had me in stitches; be spontaneous and flexible abit la…

Humour at Work

2008-09-07T01:55:00.003+08:00

"A Visual Perception that stimulate the Visual Memory"

What is life if there isn’t some sense of humour to spice thing up??

InSa

2008-09-06T23:40:00.001+08:00

Felt so tired after work... fell asleep on the couch in front the TV again.... Do not know how when I dozed off and for how long…only to be woken up by this music…

Remembered watching it a long time before…but today; it’s….hahaha…

faites-vous bien, mon amour?

Intravenous Theory

2008-09-03T15:04:00.003+08:00

I visited my old man today during lunch, as I was entering the ward.. I saw him… a stand out among the sickly.. happily chatting with the cute doctor; a 3rd year medical doctor. *it runs in the family.. tendencies to ‘interview’ people* =x

Now I could see that my old man is quite happy being in there… there hundreds of people he can talked to.. . I asked him if he wishes to upgrade his stay to a higher class, he declined and said “It’s alright~ I’m quite happy here.”

so many 'target' to talk too... =)

I asked if he slept well last night, which he did naturally.. . He relates one incident though. There he was lying on his bed resting/reading, suddenly a nurse come around to insert an I.V drip for him. He stops the nurse with a smile and said:

“Miss, May you give me one reason why I must need that I.V drip?”
*my old man is warded for observation dues to chest pain and is still waiting for the test result to be confirmed*

Nurse: *with an unpleasant tone* “You dowan, then duwan”
*wahlao.. IV drip is optional gar??, I suspect the dozen of patients I saw before me has been victim of CUCUK BUTA~* o.0!

Old Man: *again with a huge smile* “Miss, you’re a professional, if you wish to poke me with that needle at least you should tell me what’s it for since I’m here under observation awaiting test results and I see no reason why I should be put on I.V drip, perhaps you should check with the doctor if I need a hole on my arm”
*sick edi still got energy argue~ hahahaaha *

His morale of the story is “Don’t get free poke, unless you know what it’s for”

Seeing my old man still active and positive charged attitude makes me laugh. He even chased a doctor down the hall for his test results.. *wahlao.. slow abit -.=! *

Myocardial infarction

2008-09-03T00:25:00.002+08:00

Just like any ordinary working day, I woke up preparing to go to work. While I was showering, I heard a grunt from the room across; thinking it’s my old man probably doing his spiritual breathing exercise.

As I done dressing and headed down to go to work, he stopped me and said “Boy, no need go to work today, you need sent me to the hospital.. I’m having some chest pain and I think it might be a heart attack.” – seriously.. I didn’t have any expression nor am I surprised…just space out.

He packed a little bag with some clothing and a bottle of water. We head to the local GH, the whole time we didn’t spoke much. I drop him off the emergency entrance and proceed to find a parking. Gosh.. it’s so hard to find a parking space nowadays.. nevertheless I’ve finally found one empty lot beside the morgue room.

As I head toward the entrance I gave him a call, he said “Well I’m being examined by the doctor now why don’t you get something to eat at the canteen and come back a little while as I’m not sure if the doctor allow you to enter.” He even gave me the medical term of his condition and ask me to Google it~ – I said ok, telling him I going out for food and look up a friend and be back later.

Headed back to my car and drove out of GH…wondering around…settle for chicken rice half an hour later, went home to tell my sis that he might be staying a day for further observation. Just before noon I met my old man in the ward answering some questions by the M.O on duty; perhaps it the volume of patients or work stress..the M.O expression really suckball..felt like giving him a blow to the head..smile abit la a--hole~

Anyway I talked for another hour with my old man.. apparently there’s an emergency and the M.O got to take leave performing CPR on the bed beside me; I learned that the poor dude is 97 old..dying soon I supposed.. – Again I watched without neither flinching nor felt any emotion.

The whole time I was in the GH and ward…everything I saw look kinda familiar, it’s like I’ve been there before…* I was warded before when I was very young due to food poisoning, maybe it the same floor, I dunno~*. I saw a lot of sickly people, emergency crash victims and bedridden ventilator dependant patients and I just watch without feeling a slight emotion of anything.

Tomorrow the results are out, hope my old man is doing ok. He has been a very strong person, even drafts a letter to the lawyer before leaving the house...ensuring all is well at home.

This few years been tough, so much is happening and every now and then it never cease to excite and amazes me of the changing around me...…I begin to wonder at which point of time I started being cold or just numb to everything nowadays??

Axonometric Perspective

2008-09-01T01:16:00.005+08:00

This perhaps has been the most educational holiday this year; gained knowledge amidst nature. An outdoor wedding photo shot!, courtesy of CBCOSY. I’ve prepared some egg sandwiches for the journey because I knew they didn’t have breakfast and the shooting will probably takes a whole day. We went to FRIM in Kepong, though the weather isn’t very favourable in the beginning and later but nevertheless we have a pretty good time there.

It is said that a human mind is like a giant library, and in times when we have fresh incoming memories, older memories is magically erased or compressed with all the finer or not the finest details missing. Take a wedding photo album for example, very often we see beautiful couple posing with breathtaking surrounding, but have one ever wonder behind the actual scene and the trouble it takes for couple to get it right just for the one perfect take?

“Enjoy the process rather than the result” a gift for them, where money cannot buy.. I took many third perspective photos of them with the actual scene, so one day in future should they look into their wedding photo, they can remember the fine moment of that day… ahahahahaha….

candid merdeka~ ^.^V

mind bluffs

2008-08-19T02:51:00.002+08:00

My old man is an eccentric person; in a way his ways, his thoughts, his pattern varies from time to time. There one particular story that he relates to me yesterday morning breakfast that got me thinking deep…

Every morning he would run around the neighbourhoods exercising like he has done without fail over the years. If he is too busy in the morning or felt that he didn’t have sufficient exercise…if you happen to see an old man running in the middle of the night~ yea.. that’s him. Anyway back to the point of this entry~

One day as my old man is doing his usual rounds, the lady of the house *newly moved family on the other end of the housing row* ask my dad “Uncle~ I see you exercising here daily, but why do you always smile?”. My old man replied “Well I love to put on a smile. A smile that bluffs the mind”

Now I’m sure the lady is puzzled with my old man answer. “A smile that bluffs the mind” sounds simple but brings a lot of depth right? A concept that is so easy to do but yet many has fail to do so; some has probably never done it.

Have You Been Smiling Lately? =)

改善 KAIZEN : Day 2

2008-08-18T00:03:00.005+08:00

Wanted to write in, but too darn tired...finally I’ve managed to get No.5 cleaned. It has never been cleaned for past 6-7 years. For such a fine working space…over the years people has been dumping file, samples and other redundant equipment. The amounts of dust accumulated over the years are so bad that mask is need for health reason.

Was shock to find document dating 20+ yrs beneath the pile of documents, remember those ultra thick ledger books? Waste no time to dispose them off...

Holy Fuck! o.0

bandages anyone?? >.0!

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“The will to rise and expand are fundamental desires of all living being.. and when there is two or more wishing for it. Competition and conflict are born between them” Wanted to call this 2 days..but decided to, not sure if it appropriate to do so or not, instead sent a SMS asking how are things going on; giving a brief encouragement to both. *least I felt better that I didn’t complete my task half done*

Sunday, wee called saying that he need to buy some clothes for the job, he will be leaving on Monday for outstation *woo nice~!* I given myself thought and I do not know if I did the right thing by recommending wee for the job. It’s not easy for anyone who was fossilized in what they’re doing previously to suddenly accept a total changed of environment. But one thing is certain, I detected that wee is much happier nowadays, somewhat relaxed smiling more often….to be observed further.

Since the day is still long and I didn’t really have any plans, I decided to join my family for yet another movie outing. The movie we initially wanted to watch sold out; settled for a different movie which is showing an hour 45 mins later.

We kill time reading at the bookstore…“Books are the quietest and most constant of friends; they are the most accessible and wisest of counselors, and the most patient of teachers.” ~Charles W. Eliot. *rather true don’t ya think?*

Maybe it because everyone is getting older and wiser.. my communication with my mum; in no means I can’t do so before but to do so in a higher level where thing is just different than they were before. In a way it’s better and bring all of us closer. There isn’t much time left for all who raise too eventually sees the sunset in life.

"How're You Doing?"

2008-08-16T03:07:00.001+08:00

We live in a time of paradox, contradiction, opportunity and above all change. To the fearful, change is threatening because they worry that things may get worse. To the hopeful, change is encouraging because they feel things may get better.

Change is a stimulus for a person; it can make a difference and influence what goes on around them. If one is willing to assume responsibility and accountability and are motivated to enhance one own capabilities and performances, there’s no limit to what one can achieve.

For most of us, at times, we worry about earning a living, being an effective person, one’s marriage or simply being a caring friend. A lot of the burdens we carry are self inflicted; created out of fears, misperception and low self-esteem. In time blamed ourselves, lose our belief in ourselves, our power to shape and control event. Again we had spread all the negative force which lead to one’s discomfort or disappointments.

In spite of all the trouble spots in the world today, the key is never to lose fact that;
“One and each of us can make a difference and affect the quality of one’s life and of those around.”

Shattered Glass~

2008-08-14T00:17:00.001+08:00

People it seems are so quick to shoved responsibility and blame to other whenever troubles brew. They find it convenient to overcome their burden by pushing it all clean.
I’m so frustrated and disappointed with you dude, an old self of me would perhaps bash the light out of you. After some deep thought.. I rest my case and pray for you to overcome your problem.

There are times when a person is having great difficulties to understand themselves; what more about others? So take a pause to slowly reevaluate the situation, make a checklist of problem. Look at the source of the problem rather than taking account of the after effect, for such after effect will lead to a negative judgment.

"You can always count on yourself for good advice, and on days like today you should only count on yourself. It's not that getting other people's input won't be helpful, it's just that it could overload you with too much irrelevant information. Plus, some of the people you'll be around today will have their own hidden agendas, which will probably not be the same as yours. You know who you can trust -- you see them every time you look in the mirror."

To Be Alone~

2008-08-13T01:51:00.003+08:00

Lonely is just one word chosen to represent so much
To tell of feelings inside that the senses cannot touch

Lonely can be in the teardrops on a bereaved person’s cheek
Lonely can be in the silence of sorrows too deep to speak

Lonely can haunt a deserted room that laughter once made proud
Lonely surrounds you when you’re alone or finds you in a crowd

Lonely is heard in echoed footsteps of a departing friend
Lonely penetrates the solitude of nights that will not end

Lonely will not listen to the pleadings of a broken heart
Lonely stays and torments until love shatters it apart

- Mary Havran

What you resist persists my friend.. stay calm and think wise.

All that we are is the result of what we have thought - buddha

改善 KAIZEN : Day 1

2008-08-10T02:29:00.003+08:00

August 9 Saturday:
I went to work a little late though I woke up very early, lazing around on the bed.
As I approach the factory, I saw the usual daily pickup of recycled paper truck, so I went to have a chat with the driver and enquired if he knows any good scrap yard company to do my bidding.

I then went up to the office to talk to manager regarding my plan for today, he didn’t say much; I guess he acknowledged. I spent my whole morning visualizing, inspecting and drawing up the factory floor plan. The FP is kind enough to provide me with 4 additional night shift workers to help around with the task. It was around 11+ I receive a call from the scrap company; they provide free transportation which is good; save cost.

The whole cleaning process started around 1pm beginning with the back lane. Plastic drums, containers, paint cans, metal spare part (ventilators, hydraulic, spare part, palette jacks and compressors) are counted for and loaded in the truck. It took 2 trips to complete the whole task, roughly bout 5+ hours.

On the front I only managed to clear a container of recycled paper (reject and wasted print paper). The time wasn’t enough to proper clear these paper waste. I roughly estimate there might be at least 10 tons of paper to be discarded.

All the collection of waste recycled will be funded to purchase cleaning tools and paints which again will be decided on Monday.

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Osy been feeling a bit blue recently, felt bad that I couldn’t find time to cheer her up. Sometimes I wonder are all women easily get depressed under strenuous situation?

Perhaps it’s the men fault failing to listen attentively. Cbc better learn to buckle up soon if he want things to turn better.

Intelligence cycle management

2008-08-09T01:27:00.001+08:00

Today as I walk in to work, the guard call and said “There’s a new worker for you” at last.. My cavalry has arrived~ the director promised to back me and sent me 3 worker for my conquest. I’ve got 1 now…

I planned to have a management ops meeting before plan initiation. Somehow I felt that everyone is procrastinating the progress; they either busy, evade, pointing around and some clueless as of what to be done. No actual meeting briefing, just verbal follow-up between management ops over tea in the evening.

Let hope things would get better as dawn break later.. ready~ ready~ I pray that I be swift and hit hard like a tidal wave….. “Improvement bring forth progression”

小心陷阱!!

2008-08-06T01:05:00.002+08:00

Well I’m done with my factory assessments and photo shooting… submitted my report and photo slide. The problem lays not about the equipments or the facilities rather it the people.

Perhaps it been many years of work, lack of enthusiasm or simply people doesn’t care about self improvement that such problem arise. There simply too many fraction parties akin a ship with too many captains. *all got ‘shim pi – heart pain’…as to whether it turn cancerous; no one knows~*

I almost blew my steam 2 hours before I finish work. I requested for a clientele listing, instead I got a whole bunch of redundant clientele with no clear direction. Apparently the list is kept not by the sales dept but by the account dept. The lady head is one shrew and shallow person, giving reason like p&c etc etc when I clearly asked if they ever kept a profiled data of clientele.

She even remark “Please ask me what you need next time, I’ve given you all I know off , you don't have to go report to your old man” Wtf?? I remembered~ the 1st week I was working, my mum told me not to ask old man go to the company often *occasionally I had lunch with my old man* it’s seems like someone been mind poisoning saying I run back and tell my old man all the detail of the company. I got pissed...but being the cool and calm me.. I smiled, thank her and walk away.

I bring my own laptop to my workstation, for internet connection I brought along my own cable *BRIGHT YELLOW * to patch in hub since the wireless modem is fuckup. Now it seems that she tripped before *NO, I haven’t seen it happen, but you bet I laugh my ass off if I do see* the office clerk would lay a carton box over my cable *I saw her out the carton box once too*.

Since I’m still feeling hot, I went to get a clear masking tape to improvise on the situation. Who knows which dumb fuck will again trip on the cable? I even printed a punt for it “小心陷阱!!” for them to see.. a fellow colleague who happen to come by as I’m done ask “hey, what you doing there?” I replied “ooh just a safety measure~ you know la some people put their eye so high that they failed to see the bottom..” wahahahahaa~

Telescoped

2008-08-02T23:43:00.003+08:00

"If you attend to the details and errands of your day all at once, you could be cheating yourself out of a very pleasant experience. You're used to thinking that these types of tasks are things to get out of the way so that you can move on to more fun and relaxing ones. But why? Going to the grocery store can be relaxing if you use your creativity. Pretend you're in a grocery store in another country, or take along your MP3 player to listen to music while you shop. Having fun is not so hard." hahaha how true.....

So many plan to restructure... diao! >.-!

Don't 'gufu' osy oo bc... -.+!

Should I pick up the pen and papers to write again.....asphyxiated sial! =.0!

改善 KAIZEN

2008-08-02T01:57:00.004+08:00

A few days back I had an opportunity to visit a fellow printer factory that has been in the industry for 32 years. Well apparently this is worse year ever for the printing industry, ever increasing rise of raw mats and inflation is killing the printing industry. So was my timing good? Hmm…

Ah~ my 1st sales meeting; 1st Friday of every month, seated across oval table are the bosses and sales manager. A few issues are brought up on marketing strategy. One of the bosses asked me “So you have been here half a month, done any sales?” I’ve been struggling remain quiet the whole time but I felt that if I reserved my opinion I might regret it later on.

I told briefly off my plans on marketing, style and layout of new coming company profile. Until at one point…I posed a question on “Image” that when the whole ball game begins… The company has all the equipments and standard to perform..but somewhat lack quality to achieve better.

Boss says “I think your strength lies not in marketing but management” Everyone nodded their head…

I’ve been given a green light to do as I see fit. *wonder if I said too much?relief*

‘l337 h0x0r jo0z’ game on time…. Fuhh now I feel a whole new level of stress.. siao liao..

août

2008-08-01T01:43:00.003+08:00

So many things can happen in a year.. A year ago my career in life turn 180 from worse to shit.. bah….least I should be grateful for every little that has improved since. It has been long since I slept without 1st thinking of my worries and concern of things.

It truly not easy to sleep well whenever evening falls with so many thought in mind; I either stay up extreme late or tossed around the whole night. Am I suffering from depression? For I seem too positively charged living true to my motto “I lived my life daily trying to improve the quality of lives around me" but towards night fall, it’s always the same……
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Good news :-

. Wee is finally dumping his oar after year of rowing the boat. The question I posed 4 yrs ago is finally answered.. I’ve done my part in showing you the pathway, as to how you wish to travel is your own choice, good luck! *least now I have a good neighbour down the road…lols..

. 33.1 day to decide… definitely a record.... May you live a fulfilled blissful life. Congrats Ray!

"This is me taking back control of my life. What the fuck have you done lately?" - Wanted

7th day till present.

2008-07-28T00:36:00.006+08:00

I once read an article about bloggers bashing their employer. It not that is really bad or evil but it’s best to keep it in a healthy check. In the world of yahoo! and other ‘search me up engine’ it fairly easy to trace a person. What if your boss or some high-up is somewhat of an IT savvy person sees it? It is best to follow the guideline “To maintain and uphold a person self esteem at all time” *chuckle~..SB’s starskill*

So how’s work? *been hearing this a lot* well for now it still a honeymoon period.. in a info selfish environment that is~. I got replies like below which I’m compelled to refute
“We been working with such capacity for years and we still doing great” – yes, have you imagine where you’ll be with better facilities and system?

“No one has posed such question or enquiry such data from me, even the previous ‘stuff’ – Oh really? Perhaps they are too smart I supposed~

“Be Kia Tio Boh Sing Perr *hokkien* – learn to fly before learned to walk” – fuuhhh.... thanks for the wonderful sarcasm… least now I know that there’s $10k+ worth of software; meant to make calculation and job easier that is paid but not used. The money should goes to my pocket for me to make better ‘flying contraption’.

This office stuff need rezone... bawhahahaha =.+!

Sunday funnies..

On the hill behind MPK…a failed ‘Hang Khui Pao Fatt *Cantonese* - Drain curb drifting…lmfao~ o.0!

Tu me manques enormement!.....sigh

Desire vs Boredom

2008-07-23T00:58:00.004+08:00

Aiyuh~ last satuday night no good le.. car suffer another flat again.. The tyres are almost 2 years edi.. time to change tyres.. the original 175/R14 is special size and not to my usual liking and so I decides to change to 195/50/R15. Brand new set of wheels.. a little wider but better stabilities.

Darn.. The regular tyres shop is not opened on Sunday.. sheesh another of flat tyres, too lazy to fit in the spares with the boom box cluttering in the trunk. Went for the movie “Red Cliff” with family *this is so rare*. Good show though, enjoyable.

Monday.. got a new set of wheels, cost a bomb considering I just started to work.. but a worth while investment. Arrived late on the 5th day of work..where’s my name card ?? ok ler.. cuz I only got to know of the rules and regulation on the 4th day.…

Today is the 6th day…Ever heard of salesman required to punch card? Lmao.. just do only ler.. chuckles… they ask me to ‘hum’ a computer for them.. the acct unit is almost 10 yrs old.. *I wanna revamped the whole co system.. so slow and a lot of redundant data, even the wireless fail to work.

To my dear friend:

“Boredom: the desire for desires.” - Leo Tolsoy

There is this story about the Greek Gods.
They were bored~, so they invented human beings.
But they were still bored~, so they invented love.
Then they weren't bored any longer, so they decided to try love for themselves and finally they invented laughter so they could stand it. -Morgan Freeman.

3rd day KWLP

2008-07-19T03:01:00.002+08:00

I survived 3rd day.. no~ it’s not that dull.. ah well prolly sucks abit since I have not been ‘exposed’ to what I come for…. Soon.. soon.. I hope, for now it’s still studying structures and environment.

Hey look~ I got my chair *ass on it currently* and stationeries today…how sweet; something opposite for a change.. taking in instead of giving out :x

Nevertheless.. being me.. I think I stirred some wind in the company de….for start tech zone need a major overhaul… wiring is a pile of poo.. for a 20m worth co.. the office comp is a joke.. every external hired Tom, Dick and Harry who service it leave a bigger poo after another. Nope.. I not going to personally ‘fix’ it. NO TO I.T *clap-clap hand*.

Then there is the piss poor job with the flooring….the safety feature…the reception area.
Ofcourse..it’s only my 3rd day, so I gonna take a pass on this....though it was highlighted to the correct channel…I hold my peace.

The fact that I think everyone is selfish, drone to their work *know little or know nothing of others* but still some obliged to my curious power digging super wtf crap questioning. Aah~ and yes I still sniff glue with the workers..laced with puffs. Wonder if I live pass 50.

Overall is good.. I did not bite off people head this time nor did I hate the job. So I guess all is still good…

Hou Lan Fan + Chin Hai~

2008-07-16T13:23:00.003+08:00

I have been procrastinating to write this few days ago. So many things to say and think about; occasionally would draft a rough what to write and then totally forgotten it bye the next hour. So I guess is start with the “Good news and Better news.”

Good news. Yesterday was my 1st day at work. Arrived early at work *mine starts at 9 while others at 8* but decide to take a puff and waited to be ‘on time’. After the usual “Goooood Morninnnnggg!!” I notice that the whole sales dept is not in, except for the HR head and the staff. Now since I didn’t have a table and sticking in the office would look lame. I head the HR head room and..

“Hie.. Is there anything I should know being my 1st day here” *main bodo lur* She pause for moment *eh I think she blur~* and said “why don’t you head down to factory and talk to the people there, *waa nice reply since she look blur* there’s people in the ‘dark room aka masking room’ that may help you to understand the working environment here” *Cool!* I said and head down.

The rest is history… I didn’t do my usual ‘interview’ with the people… and by lunch, I’ve already know what is there to know of “lithography printing”. Some basic introduction with the section leaders and it really irked me when peoples call me ‘boss’ –
I’m only an apprentice salesman. O.0!

I spent my whole day hanging around the factory observing the production line shooting some ‘less important’ questions….and my fav activities….bribing guards to have a puff with me.. So do I like my job? Hmm tough question.. since I felt some strain on the lowerback due to standing too long..and feeling high from hours of paint , glue and chems inhalation but overall I’m ok..bearable.

As an apprentice salesman…I spent less than 10 mins total talking to the sales dept people.

Pour moi??? Diao...

Better news. Hoorrray.. I skip work today~ *ponteng on the 2nd day”….Well not that I wanted too but today I need to go to the court to self represent myself. What with the weather.. it practically rained dogs and cats the whole morning and there not ample parking space in shah alam court…*sucky place* Nope it’s not going to spoil my mood. Like usual I wear a smile to anywhere and under any dire situation… Ok so there I was after enquiring around and was directed to the 3rd floor in a hall way fills with rooms.

Looking through the bulletin boards..*aah~ there’s my name* Just then a hand taps my shoulder *it’s the ass crap ah ghua look sohai lawyer who is filing me in* he said we have to wait for a moment till we’re called. Ok.. I managed to find a quiet spot where I can sit and wait for what is to come.

So how does it feels like to be surrounded by lawyers? Hahaha..

It’s feels like a morgue right….Sei Hei Cham Cham~ *stale air and gloomy* come to think about it.. why black?? To emphasis it through clothing..mood overkilled

10 sept..Je veux un avocet, Pouvez-vous m'aider s’il vous plaît? Eh bien~. C'est la vie

Fornication

2008-07-13T03:26:00.003+08:00

Wow~ what? Wow!

These are my first thought that come to mind when I heard of people getting the big package.

I’m pretty sure those receiver might take a while to deal with the immediate feelings – shock, fear, worry, disbelief and amazement *erm maybe not~* But eventually, it comes down to this point “Now what?”

You know coming of age nowadays “Free Love”, it is common to see that most people fornicate and have their shares of fun without realizing the impact later on. It’s said 34% of woman got owned at least once before age of 20 and over 75% of it are unplanned. *that makes like 3 out of 4 girls..wow! Mind blowing~ *

Sure there’s ways to play safe, but heck who cares right let even discuss the situation and those that have may be already forced to deal with it in reality, not just, “what if….”

The options? Parenting. Adoption. Abortion. Yerp~! That about all the choice one will get, so much to think about with each of these choice. What ever decision made, women get to make the decision about to have or not to have because it is their bodies, hearts, minds, and futures that are most affected by the choice.

It amazing to find couple being adult while fornicating and when they get owned up they totally shrinked~ unbelievable! Familiar with “You Play, You Pay” ?

A word of advise.. get a rubber *it’s cheap*, remove piss pump on cumming *rubber also can fail yunno* or else keep the pants on..

2008-07-10T03:57:00.005+08:00

It’s been 1 year since the dark day. So what have I been doing since then? Well I’ve been ~~slacking~~ soul searching, freelancing, shop keeping, gods know what… and of course countless interviews….Suey la I tell you.. *everyone say I look too much like a taukeh to work for others.. *shrugged*

Anyway.. today…remember the saying “The fruit doesn’t fell far from the tree” It seems that in the recent board meetings someone voiced out his opinion and surprisingly with no objection … that I have to enter the litho printing firm…to work. *bye bye freedom*

It not like I don’t want to work.. *u know 1 year not doing solid work* and I’m phobic bout working for ‘family’, if I could I would prefer to get a job on my own account. Best part is.. I know nothing bout the litho firm except the fact that is was started some 25 yrs ago from a shop lot till the mega size it was today… There’s no second generation within the company organization. Most are oldies.. and none of my 2nd gen family is inside. *political I tell u… ..

Upon interview today..went to visit cousin in the neighbuoring filter factory..he said “All of us are afraid to enter, you are the first..congrats *sweat*. I can tell that my old man is very proud and happy that I entered…I’m shown like a shiny button around while touring the factory. I digress…Anyway I have approximately few more days of freedom left before I officially step in to work.

c'est ma vie

2008-07-08T00:45:00.004+08:00

BC rolled me into joining in at the last minute…..it was a ‘family day’ outing. With no actual training *I hung my AWP a long time ago* and no actual teammate..youngest member is only 8yrs old!.. the result is obvious right? Good fun though..

Kampung Jawa Roast house for dinner.. hmm yummies..

Suddenly got a huge lactose craving.. since I got a nice thermo, a gift off KF… hehe~ made a wicked yogurt…leftover are pressed and hung dry to make cheese… yes! you hear me right.. cheese..

アイモ～鳥のひと

Aah.. there nothing quite like it.. Space Opera~ Macross….

一身驕傲

2008-07-04T04:39:00.003+08:00

笑紅塵

今天哭明天笑, 不求有人能明瞭....

Insolvency

2008-07-02T03:04:00.001+08:00

Have a better understanding of the word “Insolvency” and how it works today…
Apparently which ever 3 option offered is still not an option. There still some days left…

Earlier in the day, received a complete statements….something that been hoping for the past 5 years.. thought it serves no purposes now…but least.. some truth of what went wrong before is known. A little self satisfaction perhaps..

Thorns of beauty.

2008-06-26T19:35:00.003+08:00

Of late I been walking around a lot.. almost each day I would bypass a beautiful garden. Within the garden lies a stalk of rose. It was the pride of the garden to have the rose. The rose being unique as it the only one surrounded by other equally beautiful plants.

Being me, I wouldn’t care much of the rose normally but would gaze upon the garden as whole enjoying each moment I passesby. But as each day passes by..it suddenly dawned upon me that am I merely admiring the garden or the stalk of rose that is the center piece attraction?

On some days I would just love to approach the rose and plucked it off the stem and on other days I would be content by just looking at the rose within it surroundings. Would it be right to say that I’m looking at the garden by not observing the rose?

Safe to say perhaps that all things that the eye sees the heart will eventually yearn for all creation have the alluring factor.

How weird it must be..

SOAD - Chop Suey!

A Place For Each of Us

2008-06-23T04:20:00.003+08:00

"Faith is the bird that,
Feels the light and sings,
When the dawn is still dark.

I slept and dreamt,
That life was joy.
I woke and saw,
That life was duty,
I acted, and behold!
Duty was joy."

A Day in Life - The Beatles(Sgt. Pepper's Lonely Hearts Club Band)

A Letter to God

2008-06-22T02:27:00.003+08:00

Dear God.. *who ever you may possibly be* It's me again. Well I still haven’t won my lottery yet. I know that what I WANT may not be what YOU want. But here today I come humbly seeking your divine~ yahoo~ help~! Thought I’m pretty sure every millisecond of this moment there’s million of SOS trying to page YOU.

I’m here today not seeking anything for myself but for a dear friend who is thousand miles away and currently in coma…fate unknown. You know Life is particularly challenging as we all have been in the position of having things going well, and then something happens like this to remind us of not only the value of life and treasures those around us.

Please God, please make it right and bestowed your miracle and blessing upon her. I hate to see her suffer the way she does and not have time to enjoy her 20's. I do not know if it is in her destiny or what not. If praying can do anything about that please take this one. Lord, Clara needs You. I'm sure You know.

Thank you God for your blessings and divine intervention. I’ll be a much much better person now onwards. Now please work your magic. Oh yea~ while You at it.. please throw in a few favours to those SOS seeker in this world. Thanks again.

My Heart, Your Home

Longest wait~

2008-06-20T01:45:00.002+08:00

I don't think a single day has gone by that I have not think of mon amour. Today after such long wait…I finally receives a long waited reply….I do not know what I should do or how to proper react…..there just this empty silence bitter void….

“Cher xSiNx,

Je suis le père de Clara et j'ai reçu votre lettre il y a quelques jours. Je suis très touché par votre attention pour elle et j'avoue que votre lettre m'a surpris.

Malheureusement Clara est toujours à l'hôpital, plus précisément dans le coma. Elle n'est donc pas capable de lire vos SMS, de recevoir vos appels ou même de venir en ligne sur internet.

Je ne connais malheureusement que le français, c'est pour cela qu'il m'a fallu un peu de temps pour comprendre et répondre à votre lettre.

Si vous le souhaitez vous pouvez me répondre à l'adresse e-mail que j'utilise à cet instant, c'est une des boîtes e-mail de Clara, vous n'aurez seulement à précisez dans l'objet si vous vous adressez à ma fille ou à moi, et j'ouvrirai ou non.

Je pense que Clara vous remercierai de cette inquiétude.

Salutations,
Mr. Laperdrix”

Thank you very much sir….

Manyak Air~

2008-06-19T21:02:00.009+08:00

Today is a wet day oo..

It started off with…

Anyway BC came and pick me up~ *wanted to go dhap kuat~ but cancelled and went for fishing instead.

Yuyu ice with fried chicken thigh for lunch…yummy~

Crap it rained when we’re just about to fish…… let hope the fishes are hungry when the rain stop. Wasn’t a very catch good day…but definitely a funny fishing day…

There we were cursing away at our bad luck.. imagine no fish whatsoever for over and hour..*making joke about bad dough bait, new Ofmer rod bring bad luck, girls etc etc..

Just then as we busy prepping the dough bait ….BC’s rod took a dip…and the fish make a leap infront of us..and before he could lay his hand on the rod…. POP! His UglyStik took a plunged…along with the fish.. hahahaha….

It took 2 extra rod to hook BC tackle *one rod line snapped* to reel this baby in…..a whopping 4kg Rohu.

Don't Snap!!

2008-06-17T01:46:00.004+08:00

It’s been quite a while since…. Took out my dusty Daiwa rod and Okuma reel, gave wipe…Ok let’s go fishing..

The mind drifted away gazing upon the pond on a hot sunny evening…

Waaa an uninvited 3.5kg Rohu broke the evening silence…..

Reflections

2008-06-16T01:15:00.002+08:00

Subang Lake

Was surveying the surrounding lake while took this.. miss old times oo… Those are the day when there’s less worries and trouble…

"I sit here, staring at this blank page
Not knowing what to type,
My head is screaming but my hands is silent,
Perhaps it’s all infatuation,
Of memories of yesteryears silently flash by,
Your absence is tormenting, in solitude I cry."

也許不易

2008-06-14T06:28:00.003+08:00

classic piece~

"I've heard the sigh from afar
it sounds to whisper an unforgotten name
whose shadow is it at the far end?
to watch the sun fading light
I am so out of control
pretending not to care about my sorrow
but my memory of you stays
to remind me that I am alone again.."

千里之外 - 費玉清

2008-06-01T06:10:00.003+08:00

It funny how a wonderful tale shared among two could changes with two different lead across distances and time. Human’s imaginative power is a real piece of work.. It swells accordingly to time/distance proportion!!.. lols..

沈默年代或許不該太遙遠的相愛?

There can only be a one author and one narrator each time~ What would be outcome of the tale?

有多少愛可以重來 - 迪克牛仔

2008-05-31T04:08:00.001+08:00

hmm...Last night wrote a long letter, took a long time to consider if I should mail it… which I did~ wonder if I pick the phone and call would be easier.. what is there to expect really?

It’s funny how one’s expectation turn otherwise always..too much hope perhaps?
Still thing should be done in a proper manners atleast...

是否还有勇气去爱?

My 27th~

2008-05-26T01:13:00.005+08:00

YCH got married le~ was a fun filled Sunday morning and a wonderful evening dinner..
wishes them a happy marriage and eternal love.

Time passes by so fast..not sure if I wishes to celebrate it this year. Too broke anyway.. lols..

張震嶽 - 愛我別走my wishes for this year "what ever you do~, where ever you are~ get well, stay healthy and always be happy~"

L'envie d'aimer

2008-05-23T20:21:00.002+08:00

At anytime of the day~ doesn't matter who it may be... peoples get knock down for whatever reasons it maybe...please don't stay down too long.. do stay positive and cheer up always ya.. ^.^

你是如此難以忘記~

你怎麼捨得我難過

2008-05-23T02:19:00.000+08:00

classic~ buta...si buey down arr... o.0!

How long does it takes?

2008-05-21T01:14:00.002+08:00

Later in the morning would be going to police station somewhere in KL.. almost a 1 1/2 year since that day now.. hmmmm so slow...so much agony..

Wesak Day

2008-05-19T23:42:00.003+08:00

When I was young….every Sunday without fail, I would be sent to a dharma school. I don’t know why I was sent to there.. maybe because I’m kind off mischievous, but hell I was a good fighter :x *just kidding~. Anyway I spent a good deal of my non study days there learning bout morale and dharma theories. I could probably quote a whole story on prince Siddhartha. Thinking back I think I miss the food there; red bean tong shui and vegetarian friend vermicelli. *lols~ With all the lessons and spiritual studies...I think it did make an impact on one ways of thought..

Today is Wesak day. I can’t recalled when the last time I went to a Wesak Day prayer.. but am glad I did go. Felt good thought~

The Killers - When You Were Young